First of all, thank you to every single one of you who took the time to comment/like my last post. Your support through this journey has been a big source of happiness 🙂
This post however has been really difficult for me to write, hence why it’s been so long since I’ve posted. I forced myself to write because I wanted to document my journey and these early days, but the truth is I am fearful, and being with my thoughts, writing out my thoughts or heaven forbid talking about them outloud, make my fears more real. So I avoid them..
But here goes:
Once the glitter and excitement of seeing a heartbeat had settled, I started to see my reality for what it was. I was carrying identical twins and a non-identical triplet, which I learned was actually not a good situation. Although it was very early days still, they said that if the pregnancy were to progress as is, in order to give us a real chance at successfully carrying a baby/babies to term, we would likely be advised to reduce the identical twins because they were showing to share the same placenta and the same amniotic fluid at the time of the first ultrasound. These types of twin pregnancies only have a 50-60% chance of making it because there are so many things that can go wrong (chord wrapping around baby, one baby taking all the nutrients etc), and the identical twins would put our healthy singleton at further risk. This was a cruel, cruel situation to be faced with after having gone through infertility for so many years. My triplet pregnancy weighed heavily on me and I didn’t feel like I could enjoy or celebrate it.
7 WEEK ULTRASOUND – AND THEN THERE WERE TWO
We went in for our 7 week ultrasound last Friday and my husband saw the heartbeats for the first time! We saw the tiny heartbeat of baby A, then saw Baby B…and although we saw Baby C, his little heart had stopped beating the day of our 6 week ultrasound. Everyone who knew of our situation/file at the clinic was saying how the body just knows best what to do. Baby C was one of the identical twins. With our new reality, I am carrying fraternal twins which is considered the safest of all twin pregnancies. It’s bitter sweet news, but news that will allow us to proceed with this pregnancy without having to make any difficult decisions.
Once I was done the ultrasound I was sitting in the waiting room to see our doctor. The technician had my file opened and was whispering with one of the other technicians while they pointed at some findings on my file. They looked concerned.
BLOOD CLOT AND BED REST
Turns out they were discussing my subchorionic hemorrhage (SCH). Basically I have a blood clot that could threaten the entire pregnancy! What disturbed me the most was how my RE gave me no hope that this was going to turn out okay. He prescribed me pelvic rest or bed rest as much as I can for the week and even wrote me a note so I wouldn’t have to go into work until I see him again this Friday. He basically said, we’ll have to wait and see and that was that. From what I’ve read, I have a 50/50 chance at getting through this successfully. I thought I was out of the woods after seeing heartbeats, but I’ve learned first hand how things can change by the day in the early days of pregnancy.
Most people discover they have an SCH when they start to have spotting/massive bleeding. Luckily I have had neither. The hope is that the blood clot will absorb and we’ll see it get smaller or disappear on this Friday’s ultrasound. Upon discovery of the clot, I was promptly taken off the 5000iu of Fragmin (injectable blood thinner), but I am continuing the low dose aspirin, likely to prevent any further clots.
My next ultrasound is in two days when I’ll be 8 weeks pregnant. I am praying for a miracle.